so i went for my prenatal checkup on saturday 4th March 2017 and doctor told me i was already 2-3cm dilated. if his estimation was accurate, i will deliver on 6th March.
that moment, my heart almost stopped. finally, the 9 months of waiting and anticipation will almost be over. while hb happily skipped like a rabbit to the payment counter to make the last payment, i sat on the nearby couch with a blank mind.
...
so the doctor was accurate. what a pro he was. on 5th march (sun) i had the so-called bloody show, which simply means i am ready for delivery.
my parents dropped hb and i off in the hospital and we walked to the delivery suite. i was really nervous, so was hb. admission papers were done few days back, so everything was fast.
the nurse ushered us to the delivery suite and buckle me up with needles and tubes at 315am. then at 345am, epidural was injected. while friends told me the injection was painful, i felt none. it was basically painless. thank god. while the doctor administer the epidural, doctor asked hb if he is ok to stay to see or he wants to go out to get some coffee, he chose to stay. another thank god. even though i knew there was nothing he can do, but his presence makes me less tense.
400am, catheter was insert.
418am, a kind of drip to make the contraction quicken was put in.
i drifted off sleepily after that, but was woken up with painful contractions an hour later. i endured, because i felt this is what labour and mother is supposed to be. sweats were dripping down uncontrollably when the pain intensify more. from every 5 mins once, to a shorter interval of pain. the pain was at the lower abdominal, then slowly the lower back pain started as well. i have to call out to the sleepy husband, holding and squeezing his hand very tightly.
i weaken entirely. i knew if the pain continues, there will be no way i can push the baby out later. most of my energy already used up from enduring the contraction pain. i have to finally called the anaesthetic doctor to give me more doses.
11am, i was told that i am 10cm dilated and all ready to practice the pushing. however, as this is my 1st baby, the nurse wanted to wait longer for the baby to move towards the birth canal more before i start the pushing.
12 noon, pushing begins.
1300-1400hrs, baby out.
the only regret i have is i never get a chance to see my baby boy 1st reaction or face because i was so tired that i couldnt even lifted my eye lid. i didnt really get to hold him till i started breastfeeding him.
family and friends asked if i will do it again? i simply told them ... who knows. but if i ever did tried the second time, kkh will definitely be my first choice.
Wednesday, April 5, 2017
Saturday, March 4, 2017
WEEK 39 – DAY 1
Just when I was telling the baby it is time to come out yesterday, today gynae checkup gave me a shock.
“Baby might be here tonight or tomorrow since you’re 2-3cm dilated”
AWWWW…!!!! That’s how I screamed inside me. I can hear the husband making a sound outside as well. He was excited and nervous, with a big grin on his face. I wasn’t excited, after having the doctor checking my cervix the very first time. He practically put his finger or fingers to measure the dilation. It was not super painful, but more of a discomfort. I was squashing my face in an awkward manner. Squashing it even more when he said he is going to stretch it a little bit more. I tried to be less tense so the muscle down there will not be so tight to be painful, wasn’t helping much I guess. It bled for hours after that which the doctor pre-warns me saying it is absolutely normal. So I just let it bled.
So yup… admission is done and money paid. All I do now is to wait.
So is it today or tomorrow =) Baby, you can decide =)
“Baby might be here tonight or tomorrow since you’re 2-3cm dilated”
AWWWW…!!!! That’s how I screamed inside me. I can hear the husband making a sound outside as well. He was excited and nervous, with a big grin on his face. I wasn’t excited, after having the doctor checking my cervix the very first time. He practically put his finger or fingers to measure the dilation. It was not super painful, but more of a discomfort. I was squashing my face in an awkward manner. Squashing it even more when he said he is going to stretch it a little bit more. I tried to be less tense so the muscle down there will not be so tight to be painful, wasn’t helping much I guess. It bled for hours after that which the doctor pre-warns me saying it is absolutely normal. So I just let it bled.
So yup… admission is done and money paid. All I do now is to wait.
So is it today or tomorrow =) Baby, you can decide =)
Friday, March 3, 2017
WEEK 38 - DAY 7
Nope. No sign of him wanting to come out. Probably just some contraction here and there, which is similar to pulling and pushing pressure in the stomach area.
Stomach getting heavier and walking now seems a tad bit of difficult compare to before.
The common water retention also started happening to me few days ago. For example, swollen fingers and swollen feet. Mom says mine is mild since there are people who really have very swollen fingers and feet. Mine probably just cant fit into my wedding ring. Covered shoes seems fine still. So I am lucky.
Everything now is well prepared for his arrival. His name, his cot, his diapers, his milk formula, his tiny clothes, the breast pump, the toy to entertain him and the milk bottles are all brought and pack nicely.
The only thing that is not prepared well enough should be the new mummy emotional/physical/mental wellbeing. It is not about the anxiety of taking care of a newborn, but more of the delivery process. As this is the 1st baby, delivery time is usually quite long. And then there is the contraction pain which everyone rave about how un-tolerate it is. And then the side effect of having epidural such as shivering and vomiting. And then the sewing up of tear vagina hole. And then there is the going to toilet pee for the first time if not nurse/doctor will not allow you to discharge. All these, is if I can successfully go for a natural delivery. What if i develop something unexpected and c-sec need to be done. That’s another thing to worry. After all these, next will be the concern of sore nipples, engorgement, flappy tummy, losing of hair and perhaps also the start of sleepless nights.
My mom told me the night before that woman body are build amazingly with function for bringing child to life. The body are able to take the stress for carrying a full term baby 9-10 months and recover back the way it is. But it takes time. So patience is key here. The body might not feel as perfect as before giving birth to a child, but well, I will try to make it as perfect as it can be through regular exercise to strengthen back the loose ligaments/muscles/fats.
So for now, dear baby. Daddy and Mummy is waiting for your arrival. Is time to come out and play =)
The common water retention also started happening to me few days ago. For example, swollen fingers and swollen feet. Mom says mine is mild since there are people who really have very swollen fingers and feet. Mine probably just cant fit into my wedding ring. Covered shoes seems fine still. So I am lucky.
Everything now is well prepared for his arrival. His name, his cot, his diapers, his milk formula, his tiny clothes, the breast pump, the toy to entertain him and the milk bottles are all brought and pack nicely.
The only thing that is not prepared well enough should be the new mummy emotional/physical/mental wellbeing. It is not about the anxiety of taking care of a newborn, but more of the delivery process. As this is the 1st baby, delivery time is usually quite long. And then there is the contraction pain which everyone rave about how un-tolerate it is. And then the side effect of having epidural such as shivering and vomiting. And then the sewing up of tear vagina hole. And then there is the going to toilet pee for the first time if not nurse/doctor will not allow you to discharge. All these, is if I can successfully go for a natural delivery. What if i develop something unexpected and c-sec need to be done. That’s another thing to worry. After all these, next will be the concern of sore nipples, engorgement, flappy tummy, losing of hair and perhaps also the start of sleepless nights.
My mom told me the night before that woman body are build amazingly with function for bringing child to life. The body are able to take the stress for carrying a full term baby 9-10 months and recover back the way it is. But it takes time. So patience is key here. The body might not feel as perfect as before giving birth to a child, but well, I will try to make it as perfect as it can be through regular exercise to strengthen back the loose ligaments/muscles/fats.
So for now, dear baby. Daddy and Mummy is waiting for your arrival. Is time to come out and play =)
Monday, October 3, 2016
WEEK 17 - DAY 3
I haven't really announce officially in this space, but yup, today is week 17 day 3 :)
1st trimester was bad but not real bad except 4 weeks of nausea, 2 weeks of puking and 1 day of hospital drama for drips. in a way, unlike other soon to be mom who puke everyday for many weeks, my horrible puking only lasted for 2 weeks, which turn out to be the same as my mom when she was pregnant with me. thank god! and thank you baby in the womb for making my life tough but with a little leeway. it was slightly difficult emotionally because the husband wasn't around except weekends. but luckily, I know he is always contactable through phone if anytime I needed some emotional support.
2nd trimester was a breeze. I started eating a lot and my energy bar maxing out. I can work more, walk more, shop more and laugh more. husband is still not around except the weekends but I am feeling better emotionally because the energy make me be able to do more of what I wanted to do. so he being not around wasn't much impact as compared to the 1st trimester. everything sounded good except this one thing attacking me right now which I didn't expect it to be so soon - round ligament pain. the pain was intense. 10am since yesterday, the pain begin, especially when I walk. nope, not getting any better. asked mr google and it says it is common to experience round ligament pain after week 17. WAA MAN THANK YOU HOR I JUST START WEEK 17 YOU START GIVE ME THIS GIFT. -.-
haiz, the husband going to Nepal soon for 3 weeks and uncontactable. lets hope this new journey will be smooth. PLS COOPERATE WITH ME AH BABY!
1st trimester was bad but not real bad except 4 weeks of nausea, 2 weeks of puking and 1 day of hospital drama for drips. in a way, unlike other soon to be mom who puke everyday for many weeks, my horrible puking only lasted for 2 weeks, which turn out to be the same as my mom when she was pregnant with me. thank god! and thank you baby in the womb for making my life tough but with a little leeway. it was slightly difficult emotionally because the husband wasn't around except weekends. but luckily, I know he is always contactable through phone if anytime I needed some emotional support.
2nd trimester was a breeze. I started eating a lot and my energy bar maxing out. I can work more, walk more, shop more and laugh more. husband is still not around except the weekends but I am feeling better emotionally because the energy make me be able to do more of what I wanted to do. so he being not around wasn't much impact as compared to the 1st trimester. everything sounded good except this one thing attacking me right now which I didn't expect it to be so soon - round ligament pain. the pain was intense. 10am since yesterday, the pain begin, especially when I walk. nope, not getting any better. asked mr google and it says it is common to experience round ligament pain after week 17. WAA MAN THANK YOU HOR I JUST START WEEK 17 YOU START GIVE ME THIS GIFT. -.-
haiz, the husband going to Nepal soon for 3 weeks and uncontactable. lets hope this new journey will be smooth. PLS COOPERATE WITH ME AH BABY!
Saturday, July 9, 2016
TRANS EPILASIK : DAY 21 onwards
day 21
went doctor appointment. and it true, there are still power in my eyes especially my right, hence making it not clear. doctor reassure me is because I have high astig which would take longer to recover. overall, cells are continuously healing. new set of eyedrops to be use after my previous set is done. next doctor appointment will be 1 month later. hope by that time the vision will be stable and no power left. oh, and I started driving already.
day 70
started Lotemax eyedrop 1 month ago and finished it last night. going to start Pred Forte eyedrop this morning. right eye still weaker than left but doctor reassured me since it takes 3-6 months to stabilize. I believe him for now. but so far, it is still one of the good decisions I have made. sunglasses can be worn easily and travelling is a breeze with out specs :)
day 95
right eye finally got better vision although I must say it is not 100% clear when I need to read really small alphabets. doctor took a look and check my eyes and YES... this is gonna be my last appointment. both my eyes degree now is +0.25. so the update of this blog will end here too :)
went doctor appointment. and it true, there are still power in my eyes especially my right, hence making it not clear. doctor reassure me is because I have high astig which would take longer to recover. overall, cells are continuously healing. new set of eyedrops to be use after my previous set is done. next doctor appointment will be 1 month later. hope by that time the vision will be stable and no power left. oh, and I started driving already.
day 70
started Lotemax eyedrop 1 month ago and finished it last night. going to start Pred Forte eyedrop this morning. right eye still weaker than left but doctor reassured me since it takes 3-6 months to stabilize. I believe him for now. but so far, it is still one of the good decisions I have made. sunglasses can be worn easily and travelling is a breeze with out specs :)
day 95
right eye finally got better vision although I must say it is not 100% clear when I need to read really small alphabets. doctor took a look and check my eyes and YES... this is gonna be my last appointment. both my eyes degree now is +0.25. so the update of this blog will end here too :)
TRANS EPILASIK : DAY10
started a new set of eye drops from today onwards.
1) endura lubricant eye drops
2) fml
Left sight is still better than the right
I used a hand to cover my right eye to test the left. And I'm glad the words are clear. When I did the other side, right eye vision for the words are totally blur. Hope it will get better over time.
1) endura lubricant eye drops
2) fml
Left sight is still better than the right
I used a hand to cover my right eye to test the left. And I'm glad the words are clear. When I did the other side, right eye vision for the words are totally blur. Hope it will get better over time.
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